Happy Fathers Day and how the dr's appt went

Happy Fathers Day!!!
to My Dad and to Ben... I am tremendously lucky that i grew up with a great Dad who always made me feel like i was the greatest, prettiest most talented kid there was.. That's not to say he can't drive me nuts occasionally but I'm assuming that's par for coarse (and probably more because we are SOOO much alike than anything else).. Ben is the greatest Dad a wife could ask for... He Loves and provides for our family and never shy's away from helping me around the house even though he's worked very hard all day... He is really becoming the "main" role model for our boys and i couldn't be more happy about that.. KayLea has him wrapped around her little finger and he thinks he was scared to come pic me up for our first date.. i pitty the fool that attempts this with our little girl haha!
Again I'm feeling great love and extremely grateful for the main men in my life! I'm blessed for sure!!!

Happy Fathers Day!!! I love you tons!!!

No on to other stuff friday i went to my awaited appointment.. i think things went fine.. My first impression of my Dr is good, she seemed to listen.. I've got some lab tests i have to go back (i had to be fasting for a few of them) for this week and that will be the real test.. if everything comes back normal if she just says loose weight and see me next year.. i'm switching dr's.. although i DO KNOW i need to loose oh lets say 100 pounds.. thats right folks.. if i'm being completely honest i probably should loose around 150.. but that just sounds too scary so we'll keep it at 100 for now... and it's not like this Dr had to tell me this (infact she didn't say a specific amt to loose at all) BUT i feel like i have put in some real efforts on this front and NOTHING is happening.. and from the reasearch i have found and from what other family members have told me of their experience.. nothing will happen if my hormones or thyroid aren't working properly... so we've taken the first step in the hormone stuff, i'll be starting on the dreded Birth Control pill next month... i only say dreded becasue i had kind of a bad experience with it many moons ago BUT as i was told more than once "these aren't your mother's BC pills".. so i'm trying hard to be open minded and not feel like a fool for getting my tubes tied after KayLea because now it seems as though "what was the point"... i guess maybe i should have put the TMI warning oops sorry!
so at least the process has started... i knew there wouldn't be an amazing "whola your cured" moment at this appt but i guess deep down i kind of prayed that maybe there would be.. Oh yea and it seems as though i'm probably turning into my Mom and need my Blood Pressure monitorerd regularly and maybe even controlled by meds.. and with this revelation i realized My mom was quite a bit younger (by a few years) when she starte on BP Meds.. so why can't i also gain her skill of sewing and quilt making along with the yucky stuff??? oh yea because i never listened when she TRIED to teach me all those years ago...
anyway thats it for today.. i'll keep everyone posted...
ta ta for now

Ok just a warning this MIGHT fall under TMI

Ok so because i blogged about my lovely monthly turm oil and I promised to make an appt with a dr i actually followed through and got an appointment for NEXT FRIDAY i know pretty good i expected to have to wait at least a month but after looking over my provider list and doing a little praying the first one i called had an opening for the time i needed (late afternoon so Ben will be home so the little girl won't have to see whats in store for her later in life!)
So now it's time to orgaize my thoughts and symptoms i want to be concise and not going into it thinking i already know my diagnosis (which i think is in-active thyroid)
so here's my symptoms
*Hair falling out (so much so it cloggs the drain after EVERY shower)
the only issue i have with this is that i have told pretty much every doctor i have seen in the last oh say 5 years that this is happening and they look at my massave mane of hair and skoff.. but really folks i use to only be able to put a rubber band around twice now it goes around several times
* Dry skin
I have oily skin now it's so dry i have a hard time wearing any kind of make up (not a huge tragedy but still it's something to add to the list)
* tired ALL THE TIME..
that doesn't really need an explination
* can't loose weight to save my life
i feel like i have put in some REAL effort on this front i do realize i am more than twice the size i should be and when Ben and i diet and are eating the SAME thing and he looses 10 pounds and i sometimes gain there is something seriously wrong.. (i do know men and women shouldn't for the sake of health and marriage compare weight loss issues but this is but one example)
*I feel like my mind is in a cloud allot of the time like i can't express myself clearly or i forget ALLOT..
too many examples to share
* ok here's the TMI, my monthly women issues are WAY out of control,
there not regular, too long, too heavy and my family wants to shoot me during a 10 day period of time each month.,. enough said
*night sweats..
but i'm cold during the day and espically after i eat.. weird i know!!
*Edit: i forgot one; all that hair that's falling out of my head.. it's growing on my chin!
i know lovely hua!

ok those are the main ones.. if anyone has any suggestions for lab tests i should insist on (im already insisting they test my thyroid, and am thinking about asking about hormone issues).. please share.. im hoping because i'm a few years older than the last time i went in and claim i was falling apart they won't just say "your only 30 it can't be your thyroid" or ,"your aren't as young as you use to be"... sheesh.. i am committed to feeling better.. and since we aren't moving anytime soon (that has been a BIG excuse of mine in the past) i can hopefully stick with this doctor (if i like her) and see some real results..

wish me luck

ta ta

So yesterday was a wash

Yesterday i was pretty much useless.. Once a month i'm incapicated for 2 days (hopefully it's not too much info brothers!) anyway Yesterday was the 2 days rolled into one (Yes, mom i know i need to make an appt with the Dr.. after yesterday i'm looking online to find one today)..and Thankfully Ben was home all day because Night before last we went to a Fischer Cat's game it's a minor league baseball team we have locally it's always fun, it's a rather small stadium and we got Free tickets because the boys participated in a reading challenge they had, we actually had to pay for one ticket but it was only 5 bucks so that barley counts.. i don't think we've EVER paid for fischer cats tickets.. Ben usually gets a few each season and i think if you can't find some free ones somewhere it's probaby not worth going because once your there you've got to spend a minimum of 40-50 bucks on drinks and snacks alone.. we always eat before we go but somehow we can't escape with out our token to the baseball gods.. and we had finally hit our financial limit when the boys claimed they were thirsty i sent them together and told them to find a water fountain and fill up the empty rootbeer bottle.. they came back and said they coudn't find one and they even asked someone who worked there and they said there wern't any.. so i (standing firm on not giving in to more money) told them to go fill it up in the bathroom faucet.. they griped and said "TAP WATER?" i asked them what they thought a water fountain was??? anyway they came back looking discusted but with their bottle filled.. Hunter came back handed me the bottle and said "feel that?" and i realized the water bottle was filled with pretty much HOT water.. they don't have hot and cold handles it's just a button that shoots out warm/hot water to wash your hands.. what happened to the days of no hot water in public restrooms.. anyway i gave in and got them a $3.75 bottle of COLD water but they had to share..

Ahhh what a night..

today Brad gets his retainer.. i'm hoping they won't have to re-fit him he's lost, no lie, 5-6 teeth since they fit him... i called and left a message asking if this was going to be a problem and no one ever called me back so i'm guessing it's fine... we are hoping the retainer route will fix his cross bite so that if he does need braces it will be very minor experience... funny thing.. Brad's baby teeth are actually larger than his adult teeth.. this is actually a VERY good thing which is why we can do the retainer route and not just b-line to braces..

wish us luck

ta ta