21 years since our first date and STILL going strong

So Sat. was my 37th birthday.. yep i'm old!! But it also marked another significant milestone/anniversary.. it was 21 years since Ben and My first date... I suppose I should have done this blog post LAST year since 20 seems way more significant than 21 but who knows why I didn't so here is our "relationship" 21 yrs in the making in pictures.. only comentary will be captions on the pic's enjoy!

Ben soccer pic age 16

although this was NOT our first date it WAS at Disneyland..

wern't we so sweet we'd make your teeth ache!

Jr Prom 1991

Sadie Hawkins Dance I THINK 1991

Sr. Prom 1992, for the record "cap" sleves were considered quite modest in the day not so sure i'd agree w/ todays youth standards BUT at the time I was legal!

I think my grandmother was MORTIFIED that we shoved cake into each other's faces but all about the fun baby!

I had to add this picture because Ben's best friend David Hatch was like our 3rd in a treo throught our dating, friendship etc. when we told the photographer at our reception that we wanted a picture of the 3 of us he didn't quite know how to pose us.. Ben and I stood there w/ Ben's arm around me and the photographer kept hemming and hawing and finally Ben told Dave put your arm around her! so he did and he shot the picture and I love it.. truth be known My parents would get the question "who is KyLeyne dating, Ben or Dave?" allot!

this is not a picture I have framed anywhere but I just love it it shows how happy we were that day.

first family picture christmas 1996

in front of the Newport Beach Temple open house

last good family pic taken in 2009

 So there you have it folks.. Ben and I's 21 years in pictures.. It has been an incrediable 21 year roller coaster that I never want to get off!!!
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I think 35 is OLD!!!

I can remember when my Mom turned 35 we were living in our house in Chino CA. and we put 35 candles on her cake and the fire alarm went off.. she was also pregnant with my youngest brother Jeff... can I just say I am SO GLAD that tomorrow on my 35th birthday I am NOT pregnant!!!

Tomorrow Ben has the day off YEA!!! and we will probably go out to Breakfast and then grocery shopping and then something fun BEFORE having to be back to take Hunter to Football... I LOVE It that we have a live in Babysitter now.. and the fact that he's saving money for a new cell phone makes it even MORE sweet!!!

I have no inspirational anything about my turning 35 just that it feels OLD!!! I mean I'm not so much feeling that I am decrypt or anything like that I feel pretty good and things are going pretty good in life but I also feel like in some ways I feel twice the age and in some ways feel half it (does that even make since??) but mostly it feels like 35.. my teenager thinks I'm a drag and I nag too much (which I take as a HUGE badge of courage that I'm doing something RIGHT!!!) my Middle son feels like he wants to break away from me but still wants me around (nice hua!.. I know it won't last much longer).. and my youngest baby girl (not so much baby anymore I know!) goes from hating me (and telling me so) to wanting to cuddle for hours on my bed.. (it's nice when I want to cuddle not so much when I have to actually DO something)..

So all in all I think even though it is OLD it's pretty nice to be 35!
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Happy Fathers Day and how the dr's appt went

Happy Fathers Day!!!
to My Dad and to Ben... I am tremendously lucky that i grew up with a great Dad who always made me feel like i was the greatest, prettiest most talented kid there was.. That's not to say he can't drive me nuts occasionally but I'm assuming that's par for coarse (and probably more because we are SOOO much alike than anything else).. Ben is the greatest Dad a wife could ask for... He Loves and provides for our family and never shy's away from helping me around the house even though he's worked very hard all day... He is really becoming the "main" role model for our boys and i couldn't be more happy about that.. KayLea has him wrapped around her little finger and he thinks he was scared to come pic me up for our first date.. i pitty the fool that attempts this with our little girl haha!
Again I'm feeling great love and extremely grateful for the main men in my life! I'm blessed for sure!!!

Happy Fathers Day!!! I love you tons!!!

No on to other stuff friday i went to my awaited appointment.. i think things went fine.. My first impression of my Dr is good, she seemed to listen.. I've got some lab tests i have to go back (i had to be fasting for a few of them) for this week and that will be the real test.. if everything comes back normal if she just says loose weight and see me next year.. i'm switching dr's.. although i DO KNOW i need to loose oh lets say 100 pounds.. thats right folks.. if i'm being completely honest i probably should loose around 150.. but that just sounds too scary so we'll keep it at 100 for now... and it's not like this Dr had to tell me this (infact she didn't say a specific amt to loose at all) BUT i feel like i have put in some real efforts on this front and NOTHING is happening.. and from the reasearch i have found and from what other family members have told me of their experience.. nothing will happen if my hormones or thyroid aren't working properly... so we've taken the first step in the hormone stuff, i'll be starting on the dreded Birth Control pill next month... i only say dreded becasue i had kind of a bad experience with it many moons ago BUT as i was told more than once "these aren't your mother's BC pills".. so i'm trying hard to be open minded and not feel like a fool for getting my tubes tied after KayLea because now it seems as though "what was the point"... i guess maybe i should have put the TMI warning oops sorry!
so at least the process has started... i knew there wouldn't be an amazing "whola your cured" moment at this appt but i guess deep down i kind of prayed that maybe there would be.. Oh yea and it seems as though i'm probably turning into my Mom and need my Blood Pressure monitorerd regularly and maybe even controlled by meds.. and with this revelation i realized My mom was quite a bit younger (by a few years) when she starte on BP Meds.. so why can't i also gain her skill of sewing and quilt making along with the yucky stuff??? oh yea because i never listened when she TRIED to teach me all those years ago...
anyway thats it for today.. i'll keep everyone posted...
ta ta for now

Ok just a warning this MIGHT fall under TMI

Ok so because i blogged about my lovely monthly turm oil and I promised to make an appt with a dr i actually followed through and got an appointment for NEXT FRIDAY i know pretty good i expected to have to wait at least a month but after looking over my provider list and doing a little praying the first one i called had an opening for the time i needed (late afternoon so Ben will be home so the little girl won't have to see whats in store for her later in life!)
So now it's time to orgaize my thoughts and symptoms i want to be concise and not going into it thinking i already know my diagnosis (which i think is in-active thyroid)
so here's my symptoms
*Hair falling out (so much so it cloggs the drain after EVERY shower)
the only issue i have with this is that i have told pretty much every doctor i have seen in the last oh say 5 years that this is happening and they look at my massave mane of hair and skoff.. but really folks i use to only be able to put a rubber band around twice now it goes around several times
* Dry skin
I have oily skin now it's so dry i have a hard time wearing any kind of make up (not a huge tragedy but still it's something to add to the list)
* tired ALL THE TIME..
that doesn't really need an explination
* can't loose weight to save my life
i feel like i have put in some REAL effort on this front i do realize i am more than twice the size i should be and when Ben and i diet and are eating the SAME thing and he looses 10 pounds and i sometimes gain there is something seriously wrong.. (i do know men and women shouldn't for the sake of health and marriage compare weight loss issues but this is but one example)
*I feel like my mind is in a cloud allot of the time like i can't express myself clearly or i forget ALLOT..
too many examples to share
* ok here's the TMI, my monthly women issues are WAY out of control,
there not regular, too long, too heavy and my family wants to shoot me during a 10 day period of time each month.,. enough said
*night sweats..
but i'm cold during the day and espically after i eat.. weird i know!!
*Edit: i forgot one; all that hair that's falling out of my head.. it's growing on my chin!
i know lovely hua!

ok those are the main ones.. if anyone has any suggestions for lab tests i should insist on (im already insisting they test my thyroid, and am thinking about asking about hormone issues).. please share.. im hoping because i'm a few years older than the last time i went in and claim i was falling apart they won't just say "your only 30 it can't be your thyroid" or ,"your aren't as young as you use to be"... sheesh.. i am committed to feeling better.. and since we aren't moving anytime soon (that has been a BIG excuse of mine in the past) i can hopefully stick with this doctor (if i like her) and see some real results..

wish me luck

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